1. i wish i had never said what i did about my car crash to you..but at the same time i would be lying if i said i don’t feel that way anymore..i miss you more then anything in the world yet i know that this is right..and if i could do it all over again i would, but with the old you because now it feels like i don’t know you anymore. I’ve never given as much love as i gave to you..but as everytime it wasn’t enough..i think the things i miss the most is being able to hold you in my arms and know exactly what was right i miss the curves of your body and your lips..now i just find myself in these deep pits of self hate because in the end i know its my fault were not together..and i don’t plan on letting something like that happen again..

2. i wish you were never born because never meeting you wouldn’t bee as good..i haven’t talked to you in a year but i hate you as much as i did when you left..the things you do are wrong..and you fuck people over to save your own ass..i hope some day you get what you deserve..im going to hate having you around again

3. you were the one who picked me up when i fell from grace..you made it seem like everything wasn’t compleletly fucked up..i remember when we used to call each other every night at 8 for about a year..then i spent another 2 on you and where did it get me? you fucking my best friend while we were dating..i dont think anyone has ever put me as low as you did, and the messed up part is i never got mad or held it against you..i think the hardest thing i’ve ever done was pulling myself away from you because even now..another year later..i still want you even though i know i couldnt put myself though your hell again

4. i’ve only known you for a few short weeks but in that time i’ve been the happiest i’ve been for a long time..i don’t know what it is about you but just seeing your face makes me feel like nothing else in the world matters..and i know that sounds wierd but i hope in time it will make sense..i really i want to get to know you better and i wan’t you to get to know me..one day i’d like to see how far we go but if that means staying just as friends..thats okay with me :) you make me happy just as you are.. and just having you here has helped so much…..oh and two things i’ve always wanted to tell you is that your eyes are fucking gorgeous and i find your laugh cute ;3

5. i would never guess that you would turn out to be the friend that you did and im glad we hangout..you may talk a bit to much but i never find it anoying..i like that you can be honest with me and so far you haven’t fucked me over like everyone else so thats good too..

6. i have nothing to say to you except that i wish you would open your fucking eyes and see who you’ve become….

7. i don’t understand what you want from me..all i do is try to make everyone happy..yet you hate me with a burning passion..i wish you would take a walk in my shoes because i think you would hate your self for the way you make me feel..

8. even though this post can be infinitly long..it wouldn’t be enough to hold the amount of shit i would give you if i ever saw your face again..

9. im getting board of writing this thing but then again how much are you really worth..you are one of the people who hurt me the worst and i’ve almost forgoten all about you so why talk about you now? the only thing i’ll say is 3/17/09 i hope you remember that day forever bitch..

10. some day you’ll look back on what we had and hopefully you’ll regret what you’ve done and said..you want me to belive your sorry and i want to too but we both know i can’t because if i do..it would mean breaking my heart again..or at least i think it will because every other time thats what it’s ment..my love is a game to you but for some reason i always come back..i can’t help it..there will always be a spot in my heart for you even if i don’t want it there..